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yuhuuuu everyone im backkkkk ih lamanya ndak make blog ini kirain sudah kedelete dengan sendirinya. maklum org sibuk, bnyk urusan di dunia. fufufufufu

selama ini saya sibuk karna saya sudah kelas 3 (ga kelas 3 pun, saya emang lagi malas blogging hahaha)

the good news is.. ive been accepted in Fakultas Teknik Mesin dan Dirgantara (FTMD) ITB! wooohoooooo!! Alhamdulillah banget, since i was dreaming to enter ITB like thousand years ago hahaha

to tell you the truth, ive been dreaming to be a part of ITB since i was born. my father graduated from teknik pertambangan ITB, and had worked for UNOCAL (which is now merged with Chevron, oil comp.)

i was born in balikpapan 18 years ago.. no 17... im still young muahaha. i was born in heaven-like-housing-complex called PASIR RIDGE (which is UNOCAL's housing complex, some workers were given house there)

and pasir ridge is the greatest place in balikpapan (which is most people considered as remote are and jungle-ish place). uve never thought when u go to balikpapan u'll see such kind of this housing complex

when u enter this housing complex, u'll feel the different breeze. it seems like u were in.. other country... seems like USA. jalan nya lebar, sepi, lots of trees (which is my best friend, danar, found there were kind of Lion King trees in our complex -most probably we can see in africa), the main office of chevron which is more like a 5 stars hotel, clinic, RABC (community center which now turns into PRCC), swimmimg pool, basketball court, soccer field, minimarket (which is not gone ahaha), masjid where you dont have to go out from the complex if you want to pray, especially during Ramadhan.. library when i used to say its my base camp.. play ground, nice and friendly foreigners which come from america, netherlands, brazil, china, bangladesh, trinidad & tobacco etc. and the NICE HOUSES of course with 24 hours of security.. with the american style of house, ive been living here since i was born..

i found it was really comfortable living in such-kind-of-heaven. when u lived in some kind of big house, with AC in there, supply of water ad electrical.. without having to pay for it! u can turn on AC for 24 hours and not worried about it... u can take a bath for hours.. u dont have to worry of shortage of water and electrical.. u can play in the afternoon with the friends in the neighborhood.. swimming, playing basketball, soccer, badminton.. and there a lot of events to gather all people in here.. such as new year eve ( which i had won some kind of dance competition there and was announced as the dancing queen hahahaha so retarded), MEOK (makan enak omong kosong, where the 1st time i participated in guitar classic concert), family day, interactive day (when u can play with the "bule"s together).. seeing bule since i was young.. was like a great things for me.. and some workers here were sent to USA for several years.. no wonder the kids come from this complex is fluent with english.. (which is.. unluckily, my father was sent to america, before i was born, sooo i never taste anything from america hahaha). but my most of my friends have been sent there and it made me really jealous sometimes hahaha..

having this kind of princess-life, without deny-ing, i become spoilt child who doesnt know the evil side of this world hahahha. i live a life which is very comfortable, fun, harm, secure. i never thought there will be murderer, thief, perverted men and other things like that out there.

i loveeeee the way i live right now.. so thats why ever since i was born... ive decided i'll be someone like my father, who graduated from ITB, worked in oil company, live in this kind of complex, and never worry of financial things. i want my family in the the future -at least- as happy as i am now. thats my dream. although it seems that im chasing for the financial side, as a human i cant deny it. money appears to be scary. it made people suffer. it made people happy. at least i want to afford what my family needs in the future. i want to make my parents rest -when they reach old phase of life- peacefully in our real house, not in pasir ridge anymore.

it happens the same things with my old best friend, irham. he lives in TOTAL housing complex (which is like my housing complex). his father graduated from ITB, work in gas company, live a happy life there. my father and his father are friends. his older brother, ALL of them, entered ITB. irham and I have been dreaming the same thing, entering ITB. since our fathers and mothers are friends, and our environment indicates us to enter ITB, we really really eager to enter ITB. we promised to be the part of ITB

thats why i really really dream of ITB.

oke i admit it i had changed my mind to get to ITB, but at the end is, i still want ITB

first of all, when people asked me what i wanted to be, i clearly stated, "teknik pertambangan ITB". imagine it, i was saying that things in the age of 4

it lasted for... 10 years. then i changed my mind. it started when i joined a lot of speech competitions, and luckily, i won at that time. i started to think, it would be so much fun if i were the ambassador of indonesia in... america fo example.
but ITB still in my mind.. ive never thought seriously to become an ambassador. so, it drived me to register SMAN 3 Bandung, in purpose to make me easier enter ITB. at that time, i changed my mind to be chemical engineer, not pertambangan anymore.

and guess what? my score when i was in junior high school is 28.6, which is... average.. i doubted it if i used this score i wouldnt be able to enter SMAN 3 Bandung. even my best pal, irham, had moved earlier to SMP 2 bandung so its easier to enter sman 3 bandung..

THE WORST THINGS EVER... the govt in bandung decided to LIMIT people who are not residents of bandung to enter school in bandung. they are only going to accept 10% of outsiders. which is.. only 10 people outsiders. considering my score was average i was not sure i would pass it. damn it.. the question is.. why it has to be this year the govt decided to add such kind of regulations?? (fyi, my junior high school, KPS, many students entered SMAN 3 Bandung, and was usually filled with the outsiders, so thats why the govt added that rules -.- i heard that from other peoples

but i still hoped to enter sman 3 bandung. i tried to compete in jalur prestasi in sman3 bandung. i chose english in that jalur prestasi. well.. my cousin in bandung actually entered sman 3 bandung with this jalur prestasi bahasa inggris. its kinda a pressure to me that i HAD to be smart as him, while hes really a smart ass!! its hard you know..

and the shocking things... when i compete in this jalur prestasi.. they told us TO DEBATE. fuke.. i used to hate debate very much. i love speech, but i hate debate. i hate arguing with other people oooh such an angel. AND THE WORST THINGGSSS (why things are getting worse? hahhaa).. my smarty cousins became the ADJUDICATOR (means the juries of the debate). fuke fuke fuke fukeeeeeeeeeee why i have to appear very bad, even in front my cousin?

and the good things (hmmm the good things came up).. ive been teamed up with trapsilo, the 1st runner up of national speech competition. YEAY ME!!!

actually my cousin told me before the test started, trapsilo is the champion of the national speech competition. since that, i had been praying i would be the same team as him in debate... and it came true!! YEAY ME! ah fuke i was still confuse.

there are 3 speakers in debate. AND THE OTHER BAD THINGS HAPPENED.. because theres no one who wanted to be the 1st speaker, i became that one -.-

it was my VERY FIRST TIME in debating with the motion of THW ban IPDN

i performed really bad, because yes, i was very NERVOUS. ive never been like this before. while trapsilo performed hell yeah great. i knew he would enter sman3 bandung soon.

the debate ended. the test ended. i went back home. and i found i failed in the test. and the only one who pass the test is trapsilo. yeah great, i was down. my only hope faded. how could be theres only one who pass? why not 2?3?4? if its not me its okay actually ahahahah BUT ONE??? OHMYGOD

after failing in test, somehow i really have SMAN 3 BANDUNG muahahhahahaha... but my father convinced me to submit my-not-so-good-score-yet-its-average to sman 3 bandung.
eventhough i hate sman 3 bandung, i still hoped i would be accepted that time.

and then... THE WORST THING HAPPENED AGAIN (gosh, hate it)
there were only 20 outsiders accepted in sman 3 bandung, and i was 21st rank. seems like god told me to stay in balikpapan hahahahhaha. and irham my best pal entered sman 3 bandung. at that time i felt really bad. REALLY BAD.

i started to hate sman 3 bandung (no offense hahaha) without any reasons. so stupid. i even had hated my school now, sman 1 balikpapan. why i have to enter sman 1 balikpapan? I WANT SMAN3 BANDUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then.. i was accepted in sman 1 balikpapan. i accidentally joined debating society. thanks to kak chris and kak yosua. u guys introduced me to debate and also scared me hahahha. i had thought, i wanted to join debate team, compete in national competition, and beat sman 3 bandung. ahahhaha i really had dreamed that!!! but yeah i lost to the them in quarter final of ALSA debate competition. but i was satisfied that i could go this far in national competition and face sman 3 bandung.

this debate things had changed my mind again to be ambassador. in a sudden, i hate sman 3 bandung, i even hate ITB. i didnt want to enter ITB anymore. i hate bandung things. i want HI UI or FH UI. i decided to be ambassador

but luckily... i joined chevron scholastic award, somekind of scholarship things given to us as the child of chevron's workers. i competed there againts people from balikpapan, jakarta, riau. fortunately (bhs inggris di buku pelajaran emang), i was chosen as 30 finalist of scholastic award. i believe it was only my luck. really.

i make a lot of friends there. and most of the were planning to go for ITB. i had been considering for a long period of time.. what is actually my dream? seeing my past, seeing my old dreams.. seeing how happy i am living as the daughter of chevron's worker... i decided to go back to my old dreams.. ITB :]

at that time, i wanted to be chemical engineer. but after being interviewed due to the test of scholastic award by om ucok batubara, who is now the head of chevron in jakarta, i had thought to go for electrical engineering, since he graduated from STEI, teknik elektro, ITB. i admired him so much. hes a figure of big boss who is very genius, smart, but also fun. hes been inspiring me.

then.. again and again i changed my mind..
my brother took mechanical engineer.. ive been watching him study, and i dont find mechanical engineer is an easy things. hard actually. very hard. seeing those books of my brothers make me sick. but.. seeing my father and brother study mechanical engineer together has been inspiring me to go for mechanical engineer.

knowing my father's boss, mr tim miller is also graduated from mechanical engineer, and now become general vice presidents for kalimantan operations made me very eager to go for teknik mesin. thanks sir :]


this time.. i have found my dream.. i dont change my mind again. i settled it. my dream is to be mechanical engineer, to be CEO of chevron, to make my family happy. thats it.

and now.. here i am.. i pass usm daerah itb.. i enter FTMD ITB.. one step closer to be mechanical engineer.

ITB here i come :D


(the detail how i work during usm daerah itb will be post soon, see ya!!!!!!)